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 Assalaamu'alaykum warahmatullaah, that morning, I just turn on my phone's internet connection to reply my Prof's reply of my post.  I remember that the night before, maybe I just too tired to give a reply or I though it didn't need any reply,, but, Ya Rahmaan,, I wish I replied to that reply. :) Coz that was his last reply from him to my chat. And I found my self, today,, miss him and regret a lot of things I wish I could do. And I just say this to myself. "It's ok. He was a precious person. It's ok to shed some tears and be sad. Coz he was, like, one of a kind person that I would ever met again,, Cry this moment, then stand up. Let's life, take the good things from him, and be sincere. He sure, is in the great place and wouldn't be hurt anymore." Such a wonderful thing, to be loved by your student and colleague.  :) Allahummaghfirlahu,, warhamhu, wa'afihi, wa'fu'anhu,, wa akrim nuzulahuu,, wa wasi'mad khalahu. Aamiin..  

 Jealousy. It's kind a,, mm.. it's a kind of broken heart that we made our self. Sometimes, it came without any intention that someone do post something that accidentally or purposely read, or see,, than we feel a pang in our heart,,  Asking and wondering,, why do I don't have things they do? Mean while,, we do understand that things do not come it's self, but it brings some consequences,, that might or might be not be able to be boar by us.  But still, some times I do wandering,, why do Allaah do not gave us that yet.. Don't we deserve it? Do we too bad for that good thing? Is that thing is too good to be true? Or, stop thinking about it. then live our life. Be happy for your self, in any kind situation we have. There is no guarantee that we would be happy if we are on the same shoes as them,,  but still,, ... :) #Staysave,, stay happy for yourself. Your happiness come from yourself. Be sure. Be happy :D  

 Assalaamu'alaykum warahmatullaah,, Hi! how are you? I just hope that in any kind of condition, your heart is in a calm and happy situation. As I am (hope..) :D This note is,, mmm, not really important notes, I think. But I just have to get this thought out of my head, so.. :) This week was such amm,,, called it a gloomy one, you can say. Cause it sky was this dark grey, cry and angry to I don't know who,, and my head and my mind didn't find it nice vibe.  I was,, kind a felt sad, loosing, and,, disappointed? All bad thought scrambled in my mind, and I just can not find a peace from it. And I guess, it just on of the days in my girl time, so I just have to peacefully accept it and live with it. But, maybe (this is the right answer, really),, I just being stupid for hoping too much from something that do not deserved to be hope that much.  I just forgot that, Allaah swt already lined what He would give to us, and if that thing is thing that He bless for us,, then it wouldn&#

There is a book, a novel actually that I really like. I forgot what it titled, but I can clearly remember what is about. It’s about a woman. A grown up woman. A lady. She already has a job. Live on her own life style, but, yeah,, some people said that she lack a lot of things. Like, a husband. Kids. Family. But, actually she has all of that. Just in a little different way of seeing from other. She did have a family; parents who never absent to nag :D,, Kids; bunch of godson and goddaughter. And friends, who may be a good company when she needs it. But still, some people said that she has nothing. And me, if they see me, I guess they would say the same. Worst, maybe. Because this time, I’m kind a in a position like her, minus a stable job. So, yeah, they might say something worst. Do I get hurt of it? Sometimes, yes. And the other times, I just remembered one thing that someone said, “Your life goal is not to be something. But to worship to Allaah swt

Assalaamu'alaykum warahmatullaah,, Hi!!!! (tepuk-tepuk dinding yang berdebu..:) I'ts been along time since the last time I write something in this blog. Busy? Naaah,, just me being too much me ^^. I'll write about that later. This time, I want to share about a thing that I do lately, every time I face something that intrigue me, problems, and something like that. Actually, it's not something that I found by myself. I'ts something that a lot of people do. But I want to share it once again, maybe it can add another plus point story of it. Sleep it off. Have you heard of it? These days, people seems like to share what we call as 'statues' at social media, chat-app, and another public app that allowed public to know what happen in their life. Sometimes, it can give you a positive feedback, but sometimes, it just give you another headache to deal with. Sharing what happened in our life is a good thing, to spread happiness to the other. Sharing s

March 26th 2018. It was a new day for me. I graduated, once again. But I felt something that i know i shouldn't, yet it still there. I'm no longer a student of an academic institute. But I'm still learning to live. And it's harder these time. People always say; "Welcome to the jungle", to everyone who graduated from school. But I don't fell like I come to a jungle. More like a desert, or .... I was on roller coaster to much these days. One time I was up, and another hours I was deep down on a valley. It's really a new life for me. And I try to live it on. Try to hang on on a hope. Cz Allaah said,, "Jangan berputus asa atas karunia Allaah.." There will be, (someday, somehow), right? Just keep going. Don't stop. Keep going.