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 Jealousy. It's kind a,, mm.. it's a kind of broken heart that we made our self. Sometimes, it came without any intention that someone do post something that accidentally or purposely read, or see,, than we feel a pang in our heart,,  Asking and wondering,, why do I don't have things they do? Mean while,, we do understand that things do not come it's self, but it brings some consequences,, that might or might be not be able to be boar by us.  But still, some times I do wandering,, why do Allaah do not gave us that yet.. Don't we deserve it? Do we too bad for that good thing? Is that thing is too good to be true? Or, stop thinking about it. then live our life. Be happy for your self, in any kind situation we have. There is no guarantee that we would be happy if we are on the same shoes as them,,  but still,, ... :) #Staysave,, stay happy for yourself. Your happiness come from yourself. Be sure. Be happy :D  

 Assalaamu'alaykum warahmatullaah,, Hi! how are you? I just hope that in any kind of condition, your heart is in a calm and happy situation. As I am (hope..) :D This note is,, mmm, not really important notes, I think. But I just have to get this thought out of my head, so.. :) This week was such amm,,, called it a gloomy one, you can say. Cause it sky was this dark grey, cry and angry to I don't know who,, and my head and my mind didn't find it nice vibe.  I was,, kind a felt sad, loosing, and,, disappointed? All bad thought scrambled in my mind, and I just can not find a peace from it. And I guess, it just on of the days in my girl time, so I just have to peacefully accept it and live with it. But, maybe (this is the right answer, really),, I just being stupid for hoping too much from something that do not deserved to be hope that much.  I just forgot that, Allaah swt already lined what He would give to us, and if that thing is thing that He bless for us,, then it wouldn&#

There is a book, a novel actually that I really like. I forgot what it titled, but I can clearly remember what is about. It’s about a woman. A grown up woman. A lady. She already has a job. Live on her own life style, but, yeah,, some people said that she lack a lot of things. Like, a husband. Kids. Family. But, actually she has all of that. Just in a little different way of seeing from other. She did have a family; parents who never absent to nag :D,, Kids; bunch of godson and goddaughter. And friends, who may be a good company when she needs it. But still, some people said that she has nothing. And me, if they see me, I guess they would say the same. Worst, maybe. Because this time, I’m kind a in a position like her, minus a stable job. So, yeah, they might say something worst. Do I get hurt of it? Sometimes, yes. And the other times, I just remembered one thing that someone said, “Your life goal is not to be something. But to worship to Allaah swt